I realized as I'm getting older, there are so many questions and worries in my life like whether am I a success person, have I raised all my dreams, am I happy with the things that I've got right now, have I done the right things? Trust me, those questions always come before sleeping.
I am a hard worker. Yes, I am. I do all things with all my heart. I enjoy every single things, in the beginning. But now, I feel awfully tired, seems like my life is a black hole. Sounds pity but hey, it's real. That's the fact!
Another facts is there are some people gave compliments for my life, for what I've done for life that I want to live. And some people said that they're envy for my persistence since to be persistent is not easy.
Actually, it's not about getting acknowledgement from other people to keep you survive and content. But, I realized that when I try to see the whole thing in a big picture, I don't think that I need to nag about my life. All of us, humans in this world, have chances to change the world. No, it's not the "world" literally, but maybe the closest world you're living in. For my case, I live in the environment with some people with different characters and I need to be the neutral ones. One of my chances to change the world is to persuade people around me to live a better culture, to develop ourselves in a better version, time by time.
When I decided to take responsibility, so I should known the consequences in the beginning, right? So, keep breathing. When you have bad day doesn't mean that you have a bad life.. :)